The first day of the rest of the first days of my life...

Well, once again, I've only lasted one day at something. I usually only last about one day at stuff. You'd be surprised--or maybe you wouldn't--to read my journal. It goes something like this: "Jan 1, 05--Well well, it's been a year since I've written. I really will try to do better this time. Well, it's late, I'm going to bed." Next page: "Oct 27, 05--I'm back. I know, you're sick of me already. I've been thinking alot about how I absolutely need to keep a good Journal. Not just a journal of the day to day stuff, but of the important spiritual things. In 100 years, no one will care that it rained, or that I fired a guy at work, or that I bought a new book. Anyway, I'll catch up with ya tomorrow." And the next page: "March 8,06--"Hmm. Well once again I guess I only lasted one day at this journal thing. What can I say, I'm just to busy. Or lazy, I'm not really sure which. I've thought about keeping my journal on the computer. Typing is so much faster, and, well, we all know my writing sucks. Somehow I just don't think all the pioneer journals would have the same impact if they were type up and printed out. So, I guess I'll just have to get used to writing a lot. I'll start at the beginning tomorrow and bring you up to date, but for now, I can hardly keep my eyes open. Later." And then the next page: blank. Along with all the others that follow it. This brings me to my current situation. As many of you may remember, way back about a week ago or so, I posted saying that I was going to write more. Well, you see what happened with that wonderfully misguided idea. I've actually logged into the blog, opened the page to post something, and then sat there staring at a blank page for a few minutes, only to log out, saying under my breath, "Well, maybe I'll start tomorrow." Now, for those of you who are less than understanding and compassionate, this is not a new problem with me. My entire life has been like a skipping DVD. The picture is there, but, dissapointingly, it just flickers every now and then, maybe backwards, maybe forward, but rarely for more than a few milliseconds. So--as I ponder what to write about, wether here or in my journal, please know that the DVD DOES contain the whole movie. It might just be a little choppy--most likely at the best parts. And no, you can't take it back and exchange it for one that isn't all scratched up. This is the "Free DVD Service: Ya git whatcha git and ya don't throw a fit. That's our motto." Alright, maybe that's a bit harsh. We're sorry, please come visit us again. In the meantime however, I'll be searching through the chapters, hoping the skip will somehow miraculously be gone this time(don't lie, you've done it too).

Ryan